Dec 5: Letting Go

Today’s Reverb 10 prompt asks: What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?

This year I let go of a house.  It wasn’t our house, not in a legal-ownership kind of way.  It was a rented house.  A huge rented house.  A huge rented house with a lake view and a large yard and great landlords.  A huge rented house with terrible insulation, mould in the basement, undrinkable water, a terrifying steep downhill driveway, and radiant in-ceiling heat on the top floor (who the hell thought THAT was a good idea?!).

After our last apartment we swore we would live in a house from then on.  We found the house and we knew that we would live there until we bought our own house.  And then we lived there…and while there were many things that were good (a yard for Xander and space for parties with our friends), there were many things that were bad.  We learned a LOT.  We thanked our lucky stars many times that we were *renting* this house…that we hadn’t plunged in and bought it.

I don’t regret moving to the house in the country.  So many lessons came with that house.  But I was glad to leave it and move back to an apartment.  I am so much happier in this post-office box with its concrete walls, its solid insulation, its included-in-rent heat, and its proximity to the city.  It’s just next door to the apartment building we moved out of to go to the house…the one we swore would be our last apartment.  And now that I’ve tried country-and-house living…I appreciate this place so much more.

So this year I let go of a house.  And of a person (myself) who thought we needed to stay in a house in order to “move forward.”  I let go of the mindset that bigger is necessarily better.  And I’ve never been happier.

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