Well…it’s CHECK-IN TIME!
I can’t believe it’s been 3 weeks since I made that post. It feels like way less. But the change in my body is amazing.
I’ve been continuing with the modified yoga flows almost-every-day (and reminding myself that not-doing it for a day or two now and then doesn’t make me a quitter). And I feel so much better. My abs feel stronger. My back hurts less. My posture is straighter. My legs are less creaky (still creaky if I sit for too long, though).
And that’s just the beginning. My body feels like it’s breathing again. Before I started this practice, my body felt stagnant, the energy in my legs felt sludgy (I can’t think of a better way to describe this). I was barely moving at all, and when I did move…it’s like I couldn’t get my whole body in on the act. I think that’s why I had so much trouble letting go and sweating like a wild-woman. It was…so…effing…frustrating. But now…
Now my body is remembering how to dance again, from my head to my toes. My muscles are reactivating. My energy is flowing. I feel less afraid of hurting myself. I breathe more deeply. I move with more freedom. I feel the truth: that I am a dancer, that everyone is. My body is remembering this.
The other day I was sitting at my computer, and I suddenly felt like dancing—in a way that I hadn’t danced in a long, long time. But more than that, I felt like sharing my dance with the world…with you. So I called Matthew over and he helped me to capture it. This is the first, but it won’t be the last. This way, I can show you my journey instead of just telling you about it in words.
This is short (less than a minute) and silent. But it’s complete and it’s 100% me and I’m so excited to share it with you. Thank you for dancing with me.