Reverb is an every-day-in-December journalling/blogging practice. Each day features a prompt that either helps you integrate the past year or envision what you want to create in the next one (sometimes both). If you want to follow along with me, I’m posting a prompt on my Facebook page every morning.
Dec 17: Lesson learned. What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward? (Tara Weaver)
This year I learned that I can be brave. I can do more than sit and dream and wish (not that those aren’t completely necessary and worthwhile things to do—they are—but eventually there needs to be action or it starts to feel really stuck and crappy). I can put plans in motion and move through my fear and resistance. I am more powerful than I ever dreamed.
In 2012, I’ll apply that lesson by making a habit of responding to stuckness and sadness and icky-feelings with movement. When I feel crappy and self-loathing-y, it’s not a sign that I am worthless or lazy or too timid to exist. It’s a sign that I have stayed still long enough, and that the only thing I need to do to snap out of my funk is to take a step, even a tiny one.
Instead of drowning my sorrows in chocolate, all I have to do is move. Make that phone call I’ve been avoiding, set a timer and do my yoga, go for a walk, write the email, schedule the class, publish the blog post. Whatever it is, movement is the key. With movement and courage, I can do anything.
Dec 18: Try. What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2011? What happened when you did / didn’t go for it? (Kaileen Elise)
Next year there are SO many things I want to try!
Off the top of my head:
-writing a newsletter
-teaching YogaDance again
-a Nia class
-an Authentic Movement workshop
-a regular dance video post
-a yoga class
And this year I managed to try a lot of things that I wanted to!
A dancing mamas class!
An editing job!
Contributing to an e-book!
A home yoga practice!
A gratitude journal!
Making a Facebook page!
Being on a podcast!
They didn’t always work out, but sometimes the trying and failing taught me more than the trying and succeeding.
There were also a lot of things I wanted to try and didn’t get to…but it turned out fine. Unlike past years, I don’t feel that bad about it. This year I learned that things happen when they’re meant to, and that means that I can put them on the list for next year and trust that I’ll get to them when I’m ready. In fact, most of the items on my “to try next year” list are hold-overs from this year. And that’s just fine.