Reverb is an every-day-in-December journalling/blogging practice. Each day features a prompt that either helps you integrate the past year or envision what you want to create in the next one (sometimes both). If you want to follow along with me, I’m posting a prompt on my Facebook page every morning.
Dec 19: Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2012? (Goddess Leonie)
A year ago, I looked at this question and I answered the second part like this:
In 2011 I could ask for nothing more than to be able to continue on this path I’ve started treading. I picture myself going deeper and deeper, learning these lessons, developing new awareness. I picture myself feeling wholly and joyfully me, with no apologies, and no self-judgment. Embracing and befriending myself. The process has already started…please let it keep going.
I got my wish. In 2011, I moved further along the path to ME-ness. I embraced and befriended myself. Yes, I had hard times, yes, I struggled with self-criticism and guilt, but I learned from those experiences. Even those things helped to heal me.
My healing was not sudden, although there were many epiphanies, realizations, and breakthroughs that felt sudden (but that I recognized hindsight as part of a natural progression). Step by step I moved toward self-friendship. Bit by bit I developed new awareness.
I can’t even tell you what healed me because it was life itself that healed me. The act of living, of moving through my days, of loving myself and others, of struggling, of soaring. I realized that every breath can be part of a healing journey if we move forward that intention. I wouldn’t have it any other way.
For 2012, my wish is just the same. I wish to continue on this healing path. I wish to cultivate new awareness, befriend myself even more closely, continue my pilgrimage to the temple of the Self.
One step at a time, one breath at a time, please let my healing journey continue.