There! I did it! I officially completed Reverb11! For those of you who have been reading and following along, thank you for being part of the journey. I hope you enjoyed it. Let’s Reverberate again next December! <3
Dec 28: Achieve. What’s the thing you most want to achieve next year? How do you imagine you’ll feel when you get it? Free? Happy? Complete? Blissful? Write that feeling down. Then, brainstorm 10 things you can do, or 10 new thoughts you can think, in order to experience that feeling today. (Tara Sophia Mohr)
You would think, given all of my dreams and plans for 2012, and the fact that I’ve been using this approach regularly since last December, that I would have had NO trouble with this question. But…no. I am beyond stuck on this one.
Seriously…the things I want to achieve next year are things like “move my body daily” and “maintain a sense of presence, awareness, and appreciation in my day to day life.” They don’t really fit with this question. They’re not goals that you achieve once and then you’re done—they’re ongoing things.
I think that this has a lot to do with Tara Mohr’s Goals Guide (which this question is based on, and which you can download for free HERE). It was a total game changer for me last year. If goals totally stress you out, I can’t recommend it enough.
…and that’s really all I have to say about that.
Dec 29. Today’s Reverb11 prompt: Defining Moment. Describe a defining moment or series of events that has affected your life this year. (Kathryn Fitzmaurice)
In the late winter, Andrea Schroeder announced that she was doing a workshop called the Creative Dream Incubator. And I wanted to participate SO BADLY, but we were still reeling from an over-spendy Christmas and I just couldn’t afford it. She told me about a giveaway where you could win a free spot in the course. So I entered the contest. And I won. It was like the Universe was saying, “Yes, you need this. You asked for it, and you did what you could to get it. Here you go.” (that in and of itself was kind of a defining moment).
The course was incredible. It connected me with other dreamers, it helped me envision my dream, and it snapped me out of paralyzing fear and resistance. And then the miracles kept happening and the dreams kept coming true. And even though I didn’t make my dream fully real yet, I’ve grown and healed and created so much on my journey towards it that I don’t even care. I’ll get there. Magic is real, and it happens…and the Creative Dream Incubator helped me realize that (thank you, Andrea! <3).
Dec 30. Today’s Reverb11 prompt: Gift. This month, gifts and gift-giving can seem inescapable. What’s the most memorable gift, tangible or emotional, you received this year? (Molly O’Neill)
The most memorable gift I received this year was the gift of a night off when I really REALLY needed it. I was deep in mama-burnout, crying and raging and generally having a horrible time. And after I had cried on the phone to Matthew for the second time in one day, he suggested that maybe I should book a hotel room and take a night completely off.
The idea was TERRIFYING. Xander was still night-nursing, and I had never spent a single night away from him in all of his almost-3 years. But Matthew knew that I needed some space, and deep in my gut I knew it too. So I did it. I booked a night at the hotel down the street, Matthew and Xander walked me there, they said goodnight, and I was alone. Totally alone for a blissful 12 hours. I had a bath. I went for a walk. I watched TV. I slept alone. And in the morning I felt like a human being again. And Xander and Matthew did just fine (of course).
Really, the cost of the room itself wasn’t the gift—it was the permission. The permission to just go, let go of the responsibility, leave mamahood at home for a night, and just BE with myself…that was the most important gift I received this year.
Dec 31. Today’s Reverb11 prompt: Core Story. What central story is at the core of you, and how do you share it with the world? (Bonus: Consider your reflections from this month. Look through them to discover a thread you may not have noticed until today.)
This is where I’ve seen the biggest shift in the past year.
My central story at this point in my life is one of a woman who is coming into her own. She’s released a lot of pain and baggage, and she has blossomed. She is learning to be gentle with herself, rediscovering her own awesome, and dancing with the magical Universe.
And that…is amazing.
Have a beautiful New Years Eve, my darlings. And may 2012 be filled with joy, love, and light…and dancing. Let’s dance into the New Year.