Dance 11: Unnamed #5

This video is what happens when you really want to make a dance video, but your husband is sick in bed. Please pay no attention to the adorable toddler playing with an iPad in the background.

I love this song. I love this song. I love love love this song. And that posed a major problem: when I thought about filming it, I became very concerned that my actual movement wouldn’t accurately reflect the dance in my head. I listened to the music again and again, and I kept thinking, “Maybe I should wait and try this one when I’m in better shape. Take a few months to, you know, work out, so I’m good enough to do it.”

…it made me wonder if that one thought wasn’t largely responsible for my lack-of-dancing over the past too-many-years…the pain of “not good enough” and putting off creativity until I felt worthy of it…

Here’s the thing: a dance (or book or painting or poem or piece of music) in your head may be perfect and magical in its amazingness. It may feel good to take that thought out and polish it and marvel at its sheer awesomeness. It may feel scary as hell to even attempt to make it real. But the truth is that until that idea is brought out into the world, made real in all of its inevitable imperfection…it’s just thoughts. It has no life of its own.

I struggled with this piece. I struggled with the dancing and the editing and the child-minding. And it’s not an accurate reflection of what was in my brain when i envisioned it.

But you know what? It’s here. It’s out here in the world. You can experience it along with me.

And that makes it bigger and better than my perfect thoughts. It’s unique in its real-ness, both like and unlike my vision, with a life of its own. I am so proud of it.

(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GBx7mzW-VW0)

What grand and glorious idea do you have stored away in your mind? How would it be if you made it real in all of its magnificent imperfection? How many lives would it touch? 

8 thoughts on “Dance 11: Unnamed #5”

  1. He’s just COMPLETELY ignoring you! That makes it kind of surreal and dream-like. Interesting.

    I really loved this. I can tell how far you’re pushing yourself. I think this project has been really good for you. 🙂

    1. Hehe! I was HOPING it would add to the atmosphere instead of just being totally distracting! YAY! 🙂

      And I agree, this project has been AMAZING for me. Today I went back and looked at the first video I did, and I feel completely different now. SO awesome!

  2. Magnificient Imperfection. Wow.
    I love your dance moves – modern dance? It’s great how you (to my opinion, I may be wrong),improvise to do some ballet moves that I would really have to practice again and yet….
    I don’t think this blog above is accepting any comments. But I will be back. Eileen

    1. Thank you!
      First-time commenters get sent to me for moderation before they get posted…but now that I’ve approved you, you should be all good! 🙂

      I have a background in very-intense ballet training, and sometimes the ballet-ish stuff just comes out! Muscle memory and all that. But my natural movement is definitely more modern-y. 🙂

  3. Magnificient Imperfection. Wow.
    I love your dance moves – modern dance? It’s great how you (to my opinion, I may be wrong),improvise to do some ballet moves that I would really have to practice again and yet….
    I don’t think the blog above is accepting any comments. But I will be back. Eileen

  4. This was like watching a music video! Cool editing; loved the different angles (wide, face, floor). I also think it’s so cute that Xander doesn’t bat an eye at you flailing around the living room–“just another one of mom’s dances,” he’s thinking!

    1. Hehe! Thank you!
      There actually were a couple of moments when Xander said something to me, but that’s the beauty of editing. And really, the whole thing demonstrates the awesome power of the iPad 😛

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