I did my first telecircle on Saturday.
I did it.
After more than a year of “Oh no, I couldn’t possibly”-ing, a month of “I’ve announced this, now how the hell will I pull this off?”-ing and a week-long delay when the Universe had other plans…it’s done.
And it was lovely. The technology worked out, the plan came together, and my friend and I had a wonderful dance (thank you! <3). It actually happened! For real! It was incredible to know for that hour and a half that I was doing something that I had dismissed as impossible only months before.
As I danced the 45 minutes of free movement between the opening and closing of our circle…
…space opened up…the space in my heart and my brain where this dream had lived cleared out…and the Universe flowed in.
A dozen new ideas bloomed in the space left by this one…and I realized something important:
I’ve been quiet for a long time. Not that I haven’t written on my blog or spoken in person, but…I’ve held things back. I’ve been terrified that if I shared everything that I had to share, there would be nothing left. If I released my creations into the world, nothing would come to replace them. If I blogged every idea I had, I would run out of things to say.
So I held them back. I stored them for special occasions, or until I could “make them perfect” (which never happened). I got distracted by new projects before old ones were complete (more on this in an upcoming post). I hung on to never-started ideas because it was safer than trying.
But what came to me as I made this one dream real…was just how wrong that belief was. As I danced, things shifted in my mind, and possibilities blossomed. I took my next step into readiness.
And I thought…”I’m ready to DO this. I’m can share what I create, and there will always be more where that came from.”
So here I am…I’m sharing. (It still feels a little scary, but I’m doing it anyway)
I have a gift for you
This is my first-ever moving meditation. I created it about a month ago, and I was too afraid to tell you. I’m not afraid anymore
(It’s a link to the mp3, so you should be able to right-click to download…help yourself, it’s yours for free, and if you like it, please spread the word. This is my thank you to you for reading my words and sharing my space…I love so much that we can connect this way and that I can share with you)
There are more where that came from. There are more telecircles too. And there are projects I haven’t even thought of yet. I understand now…I have to make them real and let them go, and then the Universe will flow into the space left behind. I will grow, and I will be able to create new things.
There is infinite possibility…just so long as I don’t hold back.
…I’m ready to let the Universe in and see what happens…