April Love: 9 and 10

Day 9: 5 Years Ago

5 Years Ago

Out of 40 photos I posted in my April/May 2010 album, this is the only shot of me. I think that says a lot about where I was; I completely lost myself in the “new mom” vortex when my son arrived in 2008, and in 2010 I was still trying to find myself again. I was struggling to dance (for months I couldn’t dance at all…it was some kind of block, and even the memory of it scares me), and in the absence of dance I was desperately seeking any kind of creative outlet, from baking to sewing.

The more I look at this photo, the more the sadness leaps off the screen. I was lonely (we were living in a house in a beautiful setting, but I couldn’t walk to anywhere and there wasn’t a bus…it was just me and a 2 year old all day every day), I was sad and tired, and if you hugged me I would burst into tears. I was on the edge of 30 and feeling like an empty shell.

Sending love back in time to the me in this photo…it gets better. <3 <3

Day 10: My Superpower

I don’t have a photo for this one, but a coworker of mine phrased my superpower perfectly:

I’m the glue.

I do what needs to be done to make the unit (be it team or family) work and make sure everyone’s taken care of. I don’t openly take the lead, but my presence is deeply felt and my absence is missed (or so says my coworker…I’ve been on maternity leave since January). I’m the glue.

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