When Marsha (my oldest friend and creative partner) told me about her idea for this month’s piece, I was really excited. She wrote, “I think my next piece will involve recording sounds from around the house. Should be entertaining.” COOL!! I couldn’t wait to hear what she came up with!
And then the next weekend she sent me a test piece, and it was WILD. She wrote, “It’s like a cross between having your apartment jackhammered and swimming through LSD.” Honestly…I think that’s a pretty accurate description. I was equal parts scared and completely psyched.
It’s SO not something I would choose to dance to. It felt crazy while I was doing it. It felt risky and “not beautiful.” But then, as I edited the footage together yesterday…something clicked. And suddenly the video I was making filled me with delight. It’s so completely wacky, so “out there”…and the whole process was just so damn fun.
A secret voice inside of me whispers, “Don’t post this…it’s ugly and goofy and people will laugh.” But you know what? I HOPE you laugh. *I* laugh every time I see it. I’m so glad that Marsha took the risk with her INSANE “household objects” piece, because it made me stretch in new creative (and hilarious) ways.
This month’s piece brought 2 lessons home to me:
It may feel scary to try something completely outside of your comfort zone, but if you jump in and commit to it 100%, you may end up creating something you LOVE.
Not everything has to be pretty. Sometimes you just need to GO for it and see what happens.
(The other discovery I made was that posting one video every 4 weeks is NOT ENOUGH for me. I miss the regular practice of dancing and filming and editing. I will be posting videos more often from now on)
(In case you’re wondering, the music is composed of the following sounds: out-of-tune ukulele, cutlery, spoon against metal bowl with water, spoon against glass, zipper, clapping, paper ripping, and paper rustling.)
I know that I’ve written a lot about moving through fear and pushing into resistance during this Delicious Body Dance-a-thon…but have I mentioned that I AM LOVING IT?! Because I am!
This time, I experimented with editing footage together. This is the first time I’ve ever seriously played with editing, and I’m so happy with the results. I’m also grateful that the unexpected snowstorm yesterday made the outside all white and pretty for me (you say weather, I say personal aesthetic gift from the Universe just for this video).
This is one of my favourite songs by Alex Day. Thank you to Matthew for helping me film the outside part, and thank you to Xander for being easily distracted while I finished it.
I can’t believe it’s been 3 weeks since I made that post. It feels like way less. But the change in my body is amazing.
I’ve been continuing with the modified yoga flows almost-every-day (and reminding myself that not-doing it for a day or two now and then doesn’t make me a quitter). And I feel so much better. My abs feel stronger. My back hurts less. My posture is straighter. My legs are less creaky (still creaky if I sit for too long, though).
And that’s just the beginning. My body feels like it’s breathing again. Before I started this practice, my body felt stagnant, the energy in my legs felt sludgy (I can’t think of a better way to describe this). I was barely moving at all, and when I did move…it’s like I couldn’t get my whole body in on the act. I think that’s why I had so much trouble letting go and sweating like a wild-woman. It was…so…effing…frustrating. But now…
Now my body is remembering how to dance again, from my head to my toes. My muscles are reactivating. My energy is flowing. I feel less afraid of hurting myself. I breathe more deeply. I move with more freedom. I feel the truth: that I am a dancer, that everyone is. My body is remembering this.
The other day I was sitting at my computer, and I suddenly felt like dancing—in a way that I hadn’t danced in a long, long time. But more than that, I felt like sharing my dance with the world…with you. So I called Matthew over and he helped me to capture it. This is the first, but it won’t be the last. This way, I can show you my journey instead of just telling you about it in words.
This is short (less than a minute) and silent. But it’s complete and it’s 100% me and I’m so excited to share it with you. Thank you for dancing with me.